Thursday, May 28, 2009


One year ago this Saturday I married the greatest man on the planet. Matt Ruta... I remeber when when I met him it was the summer after I graduated in the hallway of TFA on my way to work at JCREW... he had long hair and his high school coach introduced us.... we never saw each other until the fall of that next year... he always hung out in my room and even put together a desk for me during teacher work week that year... we dated casually for like a month and then just stayed friends... and then the following fall after a day at disney with the-soon-to-be RAYS he realized he couldnt live life without me :) haha... and I am so so glad he realized that because in the following months I had the same realization and that February he put quite a large rock on my hand asking me to spend everyday and every night by his side.... this could not have made me a happier more blesed woman. He is an incredible man, husband, coach, son, brother in law and son in law , confidant, friend... I am a better woman because I got to have RUTA for a last name meaning he is mine. SO glad that 5.30.2008 changed my last name and my life forever

Friday, May 15, 2009


deep in our heart there is a longing to be beautiful.

I dont care who you are ... I dont care how much of a tom-boy you are... you long for it.

We moved to Georgia lasst year and I have never lived in a place where there are so many stinkin pagents... first each high school has a Miss ( insert name of high school here)... then there is miss plains... miss cotton.. miss pecan... miss ( insert name of city here)... miss tractor... miss ( insert something southern here )... it is just insane...

It is like some one knows deep in the heart of a girl we want the identity of being beautiful youknow... and then they capitalized on it by making you pay entry fees and buy expensive dresses ... go to a tanning bed... get a talent... get your nails done.. hair done.. etc etc etc.... CRAZINESS...

What stops us women ( because Lord knows it is doesnt stop when you leave your teenage years) ... what stops us form know ing and realizing our worht.. I just recently read our friend Jason Dukes post about his daughters... He made such a good statement ... We as women need to realize our worth - we are worth DYING for... man wow ... that just made my heart stop... do I ever realize that simple truth... I am worth the death of a perfect savior.... man thats sobering...

Matt Ruta is so incedibly gifted at telling me how beautiful I am .... I mean seriously when I look my absolute worse he says you are beautiful... and means it deeply ...

How many times is God whispering that same truth into so many women's hearts as they slit their wrist one more time.. as they skip a meal.... as they look in the mirror and wish for something different God is whispering the sweet sweet truth of her beauty in her ear.

We are called to be Christ in this world.. that means we are called to tell the women of this world they are beautiful... sometimes it must be with action and not necessarily words... How must we fight for the truth that we are worth so much that there is not a more beautiful us?!!

When we refute the lies and misconceptions of magazines and tv with this truth:


Psalm 139:13-16 Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother's womb. I thank you, High God—you're breathtaking! Body and soul, I am marvelously made! I worship in adoration—what a creation! You know me inside and out, you know every bone in my body; You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you, The days of my life all prepared before I'd even lived one day.

Read these Lyrics from a song my Johnny diaz ( literally it is on repeat on my computer):::

Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazineSays she wants to look that way But her hair isn’t straight her body isn’t fake And she’s always felt overweight
Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see That beauty is within your heart And you were made with such care your skin your body and your hairAre perfect just the way they are
There could never be a more beautiful you Don’t buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump throughYou were made to fill a purpose that only you could do So there could never be a more beautiful you
Little girl twenty-one the things that you’ve already doneAnything to get ahead And you say you’ve got a man but he’s got another plan Only wants what you will do instead
Well little girl twenty-one you never thought that this would come You starve yourself to play the part But I can promise you there’s a man whose love is trueAnd he’ll treat you like the jewel you are
So turn around you’re not too far To back away be who you areTo change your path go another wayIt’s not too late you can be savedIf you feel depressed with past regretsThe shameful nights hope to forgetCan disappear they can all be washed awayBy the one who’s strong can right your wrongsCan rid your fears dry all your tearsAnd change the way you look at this big worldHe will take your dark distorted viewAnd with His light He will show you truth And again you’ll see through the eyes of a little girl

go tell a woman ,teenager,girl in your life how therer couldn't be a more beautiful her.

favorite things

I know most girls would love to bathe themselves in diamonds...

I know most girls looove love love gifts..

I know it is important what they get from their lover on anniversaries and valentines..

I know these things...

but that is not me...

Matt got me a beautiful engagement ring and wedding band I LOVE IT... I never ever want to take it off ( he now makes me take it off when I work out so I dont lose any diamonds)... and I love them more for the meaning ...

I am not much of a gift person... I always tell Matt not to get me a gift....persay but just spend time with me... I looove love love his gift of time....

and I also love when he makes a short little pitstop at Publix and brings me home flowers :) I love that ...

I love that way way more than diamonds and jewels.. isnt it so so sweet :)

He just brought me new flowers the other day Gerber Daisies ( my favorite )
Every time I see them I smile... I just love that man.

Friday, May 8, 2009

Signing Day

TODAY WAS THE BIG DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOP WHOOP... This was the first ( of hopefully many) players Matt will see continue their career in college!!! What an exciting day it was for Cameron Williams and his family!!! He is going to play at Atlanta Christian College 3 hours away hopefully we will be able to make it to some of Cameron's games next year!!! We are sooo soo proud of Big Cam and this great accomplishment!

Coach and Cam
Some of the Team that was able to come!
What an awesome priviledge!!
A proud coach giving a few words about a great player!